Thursday, July 30, 2009

Summertime blues

Summertime is--well, it's one of those things in life that never seems to quite live up to its hype. It's full of promise but lately it hasn't been coming through at all well.

It seems like summer is when the you-know-what hits the fan, and why wouldn't it be? It's summer! The fans are on!

I haven't blogged in almost 2 months. And here's what's happened:
1. I had surgery that I'm not recovering from the way I'd hoped. I'm giving up.
2. The plumbing in my house--oh, sigh.
3. This is the worst: a woman died. Not just any woman, but one whom I'd known for almost 40 years, one who gave me my husband, one who loved me. My life has a huge hole in it now, with only memories to fill it in.

There's a month left in summer. I'm going to try to redeem those last 31 days. I'm going to go to the Saturday Market. I'm going to feel the sun on my shoulders and get a sunburn. I'm going to sit in the back yard and read a book and drink iced tea. I'm going to see a movie, preferably one with Johnny Depp in it, and I don't care what the reviews are.

I'm going to clean my house, every single room, and then I'm going to have a garage sale. I'm going to knit a scarf. I'm going to watch TV, and I'm going to take my kids out for ice cream, and I'm going to tell them I love them.

I'm going to finish the long-overdue book that I'm writing, and then I'm not going to write for the rest of the month. I'm going to eat a whole thing of strawberries by myself. I'm going to paint my toenails purple. I'm going to sign up for French class.

But here's what I'm NOT going to do: I'm not standing in front of any fan!!!


Carm said...

Oh, Janet, I'm sorry for your loss.

I hope the weather cooperates for the farmer's market, but there are other weeks too. I wish you well in your summer goals.

I downed a couple big bowls of raspberries today... there's one summer fruit related goal down! :)

Janet Spaeth said...

Thanks, Carm. My mother-in-law was an amazing woman.

I got 2 items checked off my August list, since today was the first day of August. Went to the Saturday market, and felt the sun on my shoulders. There weren't any strawberries, though. Just raspberries, and I don't know if I can go through a whole box of them.

I might try, however.

(If I'm in Altru tomorrow, you'll know why!)

Debby Mayne said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss, but I'm glad you plan to take some time to relax the rest of the summer. You've been through a lot, and you need to regenerate. Take care.

Bookaholic anony said...

I'm sorry about your mother-in-law but it should give you some solace that you saw her just before. You are such an inspiration. And I love reading your blog. We are all behind you and cheering for you to complete your goals. Have you read Twenty Wishes yet? You need to. Want to borrow my copy?

Kacie said...

How did your month go, Janet? Did you get everything done that you wanted? Fall is here in Alaska--the leaves are falling, the mornings are crisp, and the neighborhood kids have started school.

Time just keeps marching on, both mercilessly and thankfully. I miss you terribly, and would love to spend an afternoon in the coffee shop catching up...but we'll have to settle for Nashville next July...